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Ever since my last post (Don’t Keep Telling Everyone You’re Diabetic If You Want To Get Married!!)  I wasn’t sure what to share.. Especially since I was expecting to be a Diabetic “Mrs” ..

It was using “my prince charming” in my last post that also made me hesitant on what to share. And Im not denying that he is charming, I’m just referring to the ‘my prince’ part.

You see in life, not everything could be logically explained. Nor knowledge could predict much. And hardest of all, is dealing with an expectation that was never going to come true since it wasn’t even close to reality.

But then again, what is reality?

Personally, I believe reality is the appearance of everything as it is, with nothing hidden nor disguised. In definition; it is the “existence of human awareness that is actual or true”. That could do for now.. Because human awareness and actuality could also differ from a person to another. But that doesn’t mean anyone is entitled to what is right or wrong.

And my restless mind suffered such endless thoughts for so long. I knew there wasn’t any blame nor any other way to have things differently. I knew that despite its unease, that Allah knows best.
But I was still lost about it. I had so many unanswered questions, so many needed explanations, and a ‘why’ that I was certain to never get a response from.

I tried to avoid any thought of why it happened, but everything seemed to resemble. I tried to neglect every feeling I held, but it isn’t possible for a memory that seemed to become a part of me. I tried to hold full responsibility for something I wasn’t involved in alone, but that didn’t seem reasonable. I tried trying in many different ways, but it soon led a sensible mind wander on a search for irrational disclosure.

Eventually, I started to remind myself like some Diabetics that have complicated their lives so much by complaining rather than dealing with it. Then I realized that the only effort must be placed is on patients (since knowledge and determination is for my Diabetes).

Focusing on acceptance, I started to have a stronger appreciation on everything around me. Slowly I started realizing (even though something I wanted was taken away) so much has been given to me in return.
And that’s when it hit me; as complicated as it is, I always had the choice to not let it overwhelm me. And even with no answers; a submission to The who knows best, Allah will make every unease a beautiful bliss.

Other than facing an almost wedding, and (if it matters to some) facing Diabetes; in life’s reality there are much harder situations. And regardless how hard the situation gets, its ease mostly relies on the choice of dealing with it. Just like a hole on a boat; rather than trying to use your time and mind to manage it, you keep thinking about why/if/how (and other questions) it happened, and end up drowning in your own choices.

Most of all, I can’t help but wonder why haven’t I thought of myself and Diabetes this whole time? I admit it was a struggle the first few years as a Diabetic, but long ago I came to a conclusion that any discomfort in life is a blessing in disguise from Allah. Just as this situation, but I haven’t choose to see it yet.

Many times I wished things in life to be similar to Diabetes, since its always about getting as much as you give in.

If I was to choose a reality, I wouldn’t want it any different from being a Diabetic; as challenging as it is, it will never disappoint me as long as I don’t disappoint it. It’s my promising-reality where I find the simplicity in a life filled with challenges.

Even worse; when you had the most relaxing shower and you check Blood Sugar after and its high .-.

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In my life, nothing is as Important as my Diabetes. Being a Diabetic, I’m blessed with serenity about many things in life. 

Diabetes has taught me that it is possible to face a loss and survive, it is possible to be deprived and never be restricted. It also taught me that everything is possible.

I may have to be fully dependent on Insulin, but its role in my life has become as the need for food & water.

I finally reached a point where- not only I’m satisfied- but complete. 

This is the reality I live in, the reality shared with my family members & close friends.

Im grateful that my struggles with Diabetes are finally managed. However, I still face a struggle as a Diabetic between people.

My government continuously protects, supports & offers Diabetics the health & emotional support we need.

I realized that even if Im happy with being a Diabetic, my society will still make me feel incomplete. How people think of Diabetes and react to it, makes me feel as if I am missing more than a pancreas. 

I struggle because its uncomfortable to continuously deal with people who consider Diabetes a taboo. And if they spoke of it, they impose sympathy and a kind treatment incase I die the next minute. 

 I struggle when people insist to think less of me, when all they need is a bit more reading.

I struggle wanting the simple fact to be realized that Diabetes complete me.

Sweet Regards x

mskassinova answered: I feel that I will never be able to fully overcome the public stereotype that I caused my diabetes. It is hard when there is no compassion.

I relate to that completely. If I may also add that as Diabetics we face a lot of misunderstandings about Diabetes. Despite how common DIabetes has become, people still do not fully understand what the condition is. 

The most uncomfortable situations are when people think about Diabetes as a disease, or even as something contagious.

Also, people do not understand that there are many reasons a person can get Diabetes, and the most common reason is no actual reason at all. 

The sympathy people give when they find out a person is Diabetic is so overwhelming; I wont be dying because of Diabetes; chances are ill live a longer and healthier life than any non-Diabetic. 

Or, the special pampering treatment given only because you are a Diabetic. I never needed that, and I definitely do not need it now from a person who doesn’t even fully understand Diabetes.

Not to mention, that people still do not understand that not two Diabetics are the same. Not all Diabetics have the same approach, or have the same reaction to Insulin or food. The similarity between Diabetics starts and ends with the need of Insulin. This is one stereotype I always fail to overcome. 

And the unnecessary misunderstandings faced by Diabetics are endless. People who have been around me since day one of being a Diabetic, still are not fully aware.

We will always face that ignorant person with a disappointing perspective about Diabetes. Therefore, what we know as Diabetics should be focused on how to maintain our health.

In reality, we do not need compassion towards Diabetes. We need people to educate themselves more. And stop relating Diabetes to something invincible or fatal.

Till then, I will always consider my Diabetes as a blessing & I will never allow Diabetes to disappoint me, and I will never allow myself to disappoint my Diabetes. Till then, I will return every uncompassionate reaction towards my Diabetes with a pity for not knowing any better. 

Sweet Regards xx

 goplayonthem4 answered: it’s difficult explaining to people the difference between type 1 and type 2, also the fact that insulin makes me gain weight is depressing.

I always like to keep it simple when someone asks me about the difference between Type1 & Type2 Diabetes.

Type1 Diabetics are Insulin dependent; which means that the Diabetic must have insulin to regulate the Blood Glucose Levels- whether there is an intake of carbs or even when they don’t eat. 

And to make it simpler, Type 1 Diabetics are Insulin dependent because their pancreas doesn’t give Insulin.

Type2 Diabetics are those whom their pancreas produce a very little amount of Insulin & take pills to support the pancreas to stabilize the Blood Glucose Levels. 

However, about Insulin and weight gain. The more Insulin you take the more you will eat- whether the meal itself or the amount of Insulin will cause a drop in your BGL & then you’ll have to eat again. Here is when you should actually be enjoying carb-counting to reach the goal ;)

Here is a little trick I enjoy. I start by checking the average Insulin intake per day. Then, I decide to gradually decrease that average. To decrease the average, you focus on meals that have less carbs and exercise daily- even if its for 20 mins a day.

The exercising & less carb intake will cause the body to need less amount of Insulin. When you realize your daily Insulin average is decreasing, be sure your on the right track.

I must note that what I mentioned is what I actually have tried and worked amazingly with me. Two things to keep in the back of your head- One; Diabetics are prone to weight gain, especially in areas of the tummy. So, its fine if you were to gain weight but be sure you can work on that also.

Two; a doctor in Germany once told me that high amounts of Insulin could cause cancerous cells. Therefore, exercising doesn’t only substitute the high Insulin intake, it also prevents the Insulin to gather in one place in the body & become harmful.

With those two main things in mind, I was motivated for almost 4 years now to work on my weight. And finally, I have reached a point where I am satisfied with my weight & my last HbA1c was 6.4 !

If anything, Im sure you can do it!! :D

Sweet Regards xx

 rettaxx answered: I’m kind of scared about having kids. I wouldn’t want them to develop it cause of me you know?

I also have this concern of mine. But then again, the support & guidance i had from my mother puts this concern to ease. 

Personally, my Type 1 Diabetes is not heredity. Which means that if i took care of myself during pregnancy, my child would not be Diabetic. 

I will do more research about Mothers with Diabetes & the risk on their children and let you know about the update! :D

Sweet Regards ^^

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This question is for everyone; Diabetics & Non-Diabetics. 

To elaborate on what do I mean about Impossibility; 

Other than the cure, is there anything about Diabetes you fear you will not be able to over come? What could you consider a frustration in Diabetes?

Feel free to share your opinion openly.

Even if you are not a user of tumblr; you will still be able to share your answer.

Sweet Regards